Monthly Archives: January 2015

That’s Too Much, Man!

A lot of people probably think that depression is strictly feeling sad, lonely, and, well, depressed. But depression affects all of one’s emotions – differently for different people, of course. When I’m going through a period of depression, another main emotion that I find effected for myself is anger.

Little things irritate me far easier and quicker. And those little irritations build quickly into frustrations, which snowball into screaming sessions when I’m alone in my car just to vent my anger.

I have an example from just the other day at work. My workday was going by normally, nothing to be excessively frustrated with. But then my computer system kept freezing on me, even after repeated restarts of both the system and the computer.

That initial irritation at the system I depend on to do my job not running smoothly escalated into frustration with the callers on my phone not having patience while I did my best to help them despite the slow system. That frustration maxed out when I had to spend 10 minutes after a call contacting this department and that department and the other department because of an error message that would not let me exit the account to take the next call.

I ended up solving the issue myself because no one I was contacting was being of any help. But the cumulation of one small irritating thing after another was me trying to hold back tears of anger at my desk to the point where my boss came over to ask if I was okay.

Depression is a thing that I live with. As part of that, I have days where I won’t seem depressed. It’ll seem more like I’m on a war path. It’s something that will be a part of my life probably forever. I’m learning ways to deal with it, but I appreciate those around me who are understanding.

How do you deal with mood swings and irritations when you’re depressed?

2015

A new year, a new(ish) blog! Since the hiatus in November, I’ve put a lot of thought into what I was using Day Old Sushi to do, what I had intended the blog to be, and what I’d like to do in the new year.

Over the years I’ve been running DOS, I’ve tried to do about six things at once. I tried to cram all of my interests into one blog without really knowing what I’m doing. This was my first foray into blogging outside of a few mandatory blogs for various classes.

I can’t bring myself to close Day Old Sushi entirely. Instead, I’m refocusing on how I want to use this blog. I will be reverting to my original topics of my personal life and writing.

Writing is a huge outlet for me in dealing with my depression. Which is going to be my main focus in writing about my personal/daily life, actually. I’ve been off meds since August 2014, but I have a doctor’s appointment in a week and will be asking about alternatives to the medication I was taking.

No posting schedule will be in place for the new face of Day Old Sushi. I am moving my love of crafting off of DOS and to its own blog, to be created. One of my New Years Resolutions is to be more creative. Posting on a dedicated weekly blog enables me to hold myself accountable. If any of you lovely readers were following me for the crafts, I will post when I have the other blog up and running.

As a final note for my first post of 2015 and first post back from hiatus, I want to thank all of you reading this right now for doing just that – reading the words I write and share with mostly strangers on the internet. I hope my previous posts were enjoyable/useful. And I hope my posts over the next year will be even better.